ASKEW
My brain
Forty six years of pounding
So many millions of dead plasm
Drowned in cheap vodka
Suddenly altered
Strange change has besieged me
Still solid and most quizzical
Swirling thoughts of pondered profundity
Somehow disconnected
From my brainstem to my fingers
Thoughts flowing in my mind
Appear in gibberish on this WORD document
SPELL-CHECK working overtime
An then there are the dreams
Wondrous
Amazing
Filled with symbolism
Haunted by dead relatives and friends
In stillness I wait
The significance of their meanings
Neurons misfiring
Electrical current interrupted
Mass of cells grown limp
Whichever school you donate to
Something has gone terribly askew in my cerebellum
Trail of agononizing migraines
Lead the bloodhounds forward
Eternal state of unsteadiness
Vertiginous runaway train
Drunken gait of lightheadedness
Ever present
Five years of roommate status
Nausea moved in a year ago
This attempt to describe
Specific loss of control
“Bombard it with pills”
“An occasional injection”
“Learn to live with it”
Thus enters the perplexing deduction
Is this truly “LIVING”?
Not designed as a complaint
Merely a journal entry
Another adventure in the life of this disciple
Learn from this if you can
Dismiss if you must
Feel me
It’s your human connection I desire the most
As we tumble through the void
May His peace be with you always
© Bill Grimes Jr. 2006
