SACRED SUSTENANCE

SACRED SUSTENANCE


Prepare translucent children
Greet the rising sun of promise
Peeking playfully
From behind baronial skyscrapers
Take a giant leap from fantasy
Fools paradise
Welcome to the illusion of freedom
One can be homeless
In the lap of a million dollar home
This warped wicked world in which we dance
Insane insomnia
Predatory by nature
Indentured servitude
Survival of the groping blind
Forced are we
To hum along with the madness
Human basic needs
Must be maintained to a certain degree
The privileged
Far outnumbered by the bankrupt majority
Emancipation
Redemption
Thunders expeditiously
Draft of Angels wings
Our salvation draws nigh
Sauté it all down to simple béchamel:

FAITH
Belief in the unseen
God
Creator of heaven and earth
Requires much higher degrees of consciousness
Courage
Narrow path of persecution
So difficult to follow
In the blatant blitzkrieg of ignorance


“19 But mine enemies are lively, and they are strong: and they that hate me wrongfully are multiplied.”
“20 They also that render evil for good are mine adversaries; because I follow the thing that good is.”
Psalm 38: 19-20 (King James Version)


HOPE
Promise of eternal salvation
Peace
Serenity
We are never alone
Safe in the loving embrace of Christ
Key ingredient in this real world soup du jour


LOVE
“File”
Finishing touch of metamorphosis
Powerful anesthetic for the sting of misery
Binding gift
Borne on a bloody cross
Inherited gift of ultimate sacrifice
Fear not
Stand firm in the face of impiety
Behold
We feast on sacred sustenance


“31 But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added to you”
“32 Fear not, little flock; for it is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom”
“33 Sell that ye have, and give alms; provide yourselves bags which wax not old, a treasure in the heavens that faileth not, where no thief approacheth, neither moth corrupteth”

Luke 12:31-33 (King James Version)


Béchamel
N: milk thickened with a butter and flour roux [syn: white sauce, béchamel sauce]

Source: WordNet ® 2.0, © 2003 Princeton University


File (FEE-lay) powder is used as a seasoning and thickener in some gumbos. It is made from dried leaves of sassafras trees, and is available at larger supermarkets or specialty stores.
http://www.chefrick.com/html/gumbo.html


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2006

AND THEN THERE ARE THE DREAMS

Sunday, February 19, 2006


AND THEN THERE ARE THE DREAMS



My brain
Forty six years of pounding
Millions of dead cells
Drowned in cheap vodka
Suddenly altered
Strange change has besieged me
Still solid
Most quizzical
Swirling thoughts of pondered profundity
Somehow disconnected
From my brainstem to my fingers
Thoughts flowing in my mind
Appear in poetic gibberish
Blathering WORD document
SPELL-CHECK working overtime
And then there are the dreams
Wondrous
Amazing
Filled with symbolism
Haunted by dead relatives and friends
In stillness I wait
The significance of their meanings
Neurons misfiring
Electrical current interrupted
Gray matter grown limp
Whichever school you donate to
Something has gone terribly askew in my cerebellum
Trail of agonizing migraines
Lead the bloodhounds forward
Eternal state of unsteadiness
Vertiginous runaway train
Drunken gait of lightheadedness
Menieres blasted curse
Ever present
Five years of roommate status
Nausea moved in a year ago
Futile attempts to relay
Specific loss of control
Bombard it with pills
An occasional injection
Learn to live with it
Thus enters the perplexing deduction
Is this truly LIVING?
Not designed as a complaint
Merely a journal entry
Another adventure in the life of this wayward disciple
Dig this if you can
Dismiss it if you must
Feel me
It’s your human connection I desire the most
As we tumble through the void
May His peace be with you always


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2006

SPLINTER

SPLINTER



Angelic child
Perhaps age three
Breathtaking
Stunning natural curls
Long flowing locks
God’s finest creation
Such a gorgeous baby girl
Her uncanny resemblance
To a waiflike Sophia Loren
Sobbing drastically was she
Wailing at the top of her lungs
A nasty predicament indeed
Her tiny delicate finger
A splinter caused her grief
Unwelcome projectile
Lodged in her precious digit
Hardly my place to play Mommy
Dad is a hard enough gig
Instinctively
Feeling quite out of place
I reached for her
Cradled her distressed perfection
In my unworthy lap of loving embrace
Seeking only to solace her pain
I comforted her
As I plucked out the intrusive shard
Cooing softly
Like I did with my daughter Sarah
Soon the squalling ceased
Heaven blessed our magical bond
Trust was established in that moment
Between two anointed children
She nuzzled her cherub face
In the nape of my doting embrace
My heart exploded with adoration
As she cautiously shared her injured limb
She smelled like divine honeysuckle
As I gently kissed her wound
A brilliant smile soon returned
To this beautiful blessed darling
I believe her name is Madison
Her Mom gazed upon us approvingly
Subliminal appreciation
As they walked away in bliss
An instant I shall never forget
Man how I miss monogamy



© Bill Grimes Jr. 2006

IN THE END

IN THE END


Tilting axis
Mystical abraxas
Notions of brass pomposity
Windswept plains
Barren from upheavals gale
Nomadic trek
Years forty seven dotage
Reclusive at best
Lonely veering draught
Chants a haunting measure
And in the end
It matters not
Horded ruins of earthly treasure
Spiritual deposits
Cache of love transcending
Enduring legacy
I wish to leave behind
Immortal words of heartfelt salutation
Exceeding expectations
Vintage tears gone by
Bear fruits of jovial virtue


Matthew 7:19-21 (King James Version)
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19Every tree that bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire.
20Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them.
21Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven.

(C) Bill Grimes Jr. 2006

SULTRY FACE OF TIME

SULTRY FACE OF TIME


So many wonderful things
I long to do with my life
Altered so
Across the sultry face of time
Priorities
Once steeped in urgency
This day
Now adrift in placid redress
At peace with destiny
To be a good father to my children
A loving brother
Dedicated servant
Disciple to our precious Lord
Sufficient
Fulfilling
Absolute
Nagging loneliness
Selfish craving for betrothed bliss
Perhaps a gift hereafter
If it’s meant to be
Meanwhile
My mission is simplistic
To live His holy word
Forevermore



© Bill Grimes Jr. 2006

EMPTY SINGULARITY

EMPTY SINGULARITY




Curl my toes dear lady
Moonstruck eyes of loneliness
Lethargic auricle
Pounds a doleful dirge
Gallantry still lives
Within this batty messenger
Dementia praecox
Delusions of connubial bliss
Schizophrenic poet
Unzipped by years of lunacy
I lay it all on the alter
Deranged as it may seem
Blemished infatuation
Withered aphrodisia
Squirming soul aflame
Rapid oxidation
Plethora of express tenderness
Coveted arbitration
Churlish trepidation
Perspicacity burgeons
Tender spouts of forethought
The dawn arrives in exaltation
Empty singularity
Yearning for consummation
My essence screams for her


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2006

ONCE I WAS AN ANTICHRIST

ONCE I WAS AN ANTICHRIST



June 6th, 2006
Reflections concentrated
Sepulchral realization
Symbolic embolism
Guttural abomination
Once I was an antichrist
Mighty struggle ascendant
Against the very nature
Of Jesus Christ the King
Evil gripped my tortured soul
Egocentric mind games
Hypnotic trip of doom
Failure monumental
Addicted to selfish narcissism
Forthright
Fearless misadventure
Magnitude beyond Richter
Indwelled by Satan’s sidekicks
Wretchedness
My only friend
The man-child in the mirror
Miserable mongrel indeed
One brilliant stroke
All darkness cleared
My Savior crushed the thrall
Dismissed the demon seeds
Grace bestowed infinitude
Holy alteration
This day I write in triumph
Sheer joy to be alive
Breathing proof of answered prayer
Orison seraphic
His praise I sing vociferously
Selah

© Bill Grimes Jr. 2006

BROKEN MAN (DEDICATED TO THE MAN I ONCE WAS)

BROKEN MAN


Hollow eyes of age
Bloodshot trail of second chances
Window to his flagging soul
Ashen evanescence
Forsaken dreams
Etched in quagmire fissures
His ghastly ancient face
No longer recognizable
To those who deem him dearly
Days of glory past
Mystic morose irony
Once so proud and vibrant
This day
Cowering
Chapfallen
Fractured
Reduced to a fragile shard
Caustic trail of tears
Moist with acrid agony
He longs for noble death
A warrior’s funeral pyre
Inanimately suspended
In acrimonious purgatory
Hells inferno
Stoked by mental illness
Shattered egos terminal diagnosis
Have mercy on this knurled rolling stone
Seeking peace
In all the wrong places


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2006

ADDISON

ADDISON


His name means “Son of Adam”
Young Addison LaGrange
Tender age of innocence
Four years old and gun-shy
OH PLEASE TELL ME WHY?
The slapping sound of his Father’s belt
Ripping through his trouser loops
Sends chilling lightning shivers
Down his fledgling puerile spine
Sheer terror
Rules his warped universe
Forced into senility
Woe far beyond his birthright
He wets the filthy bed
Uncontrollable restless psychosis
A sad excuse for more abuse
Mere babes should suffer naught
Scarred mental chasm deepens
Bloody welts
Dot his tiny crown
Divots of silken chestnut hair
Ripped mercilessly from his head
Untimely drunken rage
Massive purple bruises
Disfigurement from the mauls
Create disturbing childhood memories
Nightmares indescribable
Shrill screams of trepidation
Haunt the cramped three room flat
No time for wishful thinking
When a demons at the door
God bless this precious boy
May mighty angels from Heaven
Smother him with peace
Justice shall surely befall the horrid sleaze ball
Who walks the streets of hell
I cannot look away
Ignore this troubling trend
We all must say NO MORE
Defend the weaker souls
Please let it start with me
And thee my humble friends
Our children are treasured gifts
May no man bring them harm
AMEN



Psalm 45:15-17 (King James Version)
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15With gladness and rejoicing shall they be brought: they shall enter into the king's palace.
16Instead of thy fathers shall be thy children, whom thou mayest make princes in all the earth.
17I will make thy name to be remembered in all generations: therefore shall the people praise thee for ever and ever.

© Bill Grimes Jr. 2006

WORDS OF WISDOM FROM CHIEF TECUMSEH

Shawnee History©
"So live your life that the fear of death can never enter your heart. Trouble no one about their religion; respect others in their view, and demand that they respect yours. Love your life, perfect your life, beautify all things in your life. Seek to make your life long and its purpose in the service of your people. Prepare a noble death song for the day when you go over the great divide. Always give a word or a sign of salute when meeting or passing a friend, even a stranger, when in a lonely place. Show respect to all people and grovel to none. When you arise in the morning give thanks for the food and for the joy of living. If you see no reason for giving thanks, the fault lies only in yourself. Abuse no one and no thing, for abuse turns the wise ones to fools and robs the spirit of its vision. When it comes your time to die, be not like those whose hearts are filled with the fear of death, so that when their time comes they weep and pray for a little more time to live their lives over again in a different way. Sing your death song and die like a hero going home."
Chief Tecumseh, Shawnee Nation

SINNER'S REQUIEM

SINNER’S REQUIEM


Some are born to follow
Few are called to lead
The measure of true wisdom
Wounds from which we bleed

Notions of Nirvana
Dreams of Godly bliss
Guide us on our journey
Leading us to this

The cost
Complete surrender
Perfect trust in Him
No room for hesitation
Sinner’s requiem

Past faults are obsolete
Our soul is born again
Bathed in Holy splendor
Selfish demons slain

In joyful celebration
The called are rendered free
Ransom of His kingdom
Grace for you and me

Psalm 25:7-9 (King James Version)
7Remember not the sins of my youth, nor my transgressions: according to thy mercy remember thou me for thy goodness’ sake, O LORD. 8Good and upright is the Lord: therefore will he teach sinners in the way.

© Bill Grimes Jr. 2006

KALI OKA ROAD

KALI OKA ROAD


Murky water swirling
Whiskey colored vortex
Macabre swamp oaks
Claw the slimy silt
Eerie green lights
Some say the ghosts of Chickasaw warriors
Haunt the sultry gloom
Bull frogs moan in harmony
Brilliant full moon
Illuminates a she gators burnt orange eyes
Cottonmouths deadly bed
Lurks just beneath the gentle wake
Red clay roads
Treacherous path to nowhere
Olive hued peat moss
Tricky quick sand ambush
Seeping sound of death
Rumors of headless nomads
Enchanted feral waifs
Deep forest trolls
My mind drifts to teenage curiosity
Cold Duck courage
Old friends I shall never forget
South Alabama mysteries
The legend lives on
Down fabled Kali Oka road


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2006

WELCOME HOME (For Wayne)

WELCOME HOME
(For Wayne)



Distressed persona
Velvet glove
Short on patience
Lacking love

He screams in anguish
Whispered pitch
Tortured silence
Seething witch

Paranoia
Twisted hell
Bi polar demons
Cast their spell

Be strong dear friend
This too shall pass
Foggy pipe dreams
Empty glass

Sober joy
Horizons new
Groping faith
Will see you through

When hopes abandoned
Comrades flee
Christ is waiting
Patiently

This path we share
You’re not alone
Strength abundant
Welcome home

© Bill Grimes Jr. 2006

GULF COAST MEMORIES

GULF COAST MEMORIES

Azaleas
Brilliant fuchsia jewels
Tender white gardenias
Magnolia blossoms sweet
Snakelike Kudzu vines
Creep along the whitewashed trellis
Eerie Spanish moss
Witches locks
Add mystery to her allure
So many traduce
Malign her humble spell
Appealing memories hold me close
Childhood pleasantries
Safety from the storms that swirl of age
Mobile Alabama
Nobel city by the bay
Perdido Key Florida
When sugar sand dunes stood mighty
Fort Morgan’s macabre bloodstained stone
Confederate ghosts
Still haunt the dank black halls
My humble mind drifts back in longing
Warmest approbation
Dreams the years can’t swindle


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2006

PRAYERS FOR COURAGE

PRAYERS FOR COURAGE



Naked whispers
Sirens song
Threats exposed
I must be strong

Temptations harbor
Satan’s best
Endless onslaught
Earthly test

Weakened state
No excuses
Mental warfare
Self abuses

Prayers for courage
Daily might
Power flowing
One way flight

Eyes in focus
Tensile nerves
Hearts compassion
Live to serve

Standing firm
His trust I claim
I share with you
In Jesus’ name


Joshua 1:9 (King James Version)
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9Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.

© Bill Grimes Jr. 2006

BREAKDOWN

BREAKDOWN


Demon spirits
Lived beneath my bed
Hellish imps
Consumed my aching head

Heartache
Deluged my lonely soul
Selfish state of mind
Void of self control

Bitter pill of breakdown
Brought me to my knees
Self destructive outlook
Futile to appease

Anguished cries
My Lord, please rescue me
Teach me Father
Hold me close to Thee

Humble wisdom
Trial by Holy fire
Intrinsic alteration
Filled me with desire

Peace incumbent
Blessedness supreme
Ageless restoration
Endless soothing dream

This day I stand triumphant
In tribute to my King
Vessel of anointment
No longer suffering


Halleluiah
Join me in this song
Christ, the healing current
His power keeps me strong


Acts 2:16-18 (King James Version)
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16But this is that which was spoken by the prophet Joel;
17And it shall come to pass in the last days, saith God, I will pour out of my Spirit upon all flesh: and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams:
18And on my servants and on my handmaidens I will pour out in those days of my Spirit; and they shall prophesy:

© Bill Grimes Jr. 2006

A BULLET SET ME FREE

A BULLET SET ME FREE


Disturbing dream had I last night
Spiritually insignificant
Myself
A fugitive
No clear understanding
Of the reasons for my flight
Safe harbor in the house of a friend
Shelter from the dragnet
Discovered and arrested
Handcuffed for extradition
While staring blankly in defiance
Helpless sitting duck
In the backseat of his car
A zealous FBI agent
Released me from my bondage
A single fatal bullet
Exploded in my left temple
No pain do I recall
Just gore and claret blackness
Amused at my reaction
A laugh for my own mortality
No need to fear this day
My Savior Jesus Christ
Has prepared as room for me
In His Father’s mansion
Weep not
Dear friends and loved ones
My wounds shall set me free
Paradise prolific
Eternal reward for life’s survival


Psalm 23:5-7 (King James Version)
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5Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
6Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.
© Bill Grimes Jr. 2006

METAMORPHOSIS

METAMORPHOSIS


March 2006
Ferocious storm within me
Face down was I
Trembling in mortal fear
A miserable state of being
Hope fleeting
Despondency
Raged beneath my awkward surface
Mired in self destruction
Piercing primary focus
Longing only to sleep
Alive in the biological sense
Yet death gripped my spirit
My faith
Laced with self centered works
Simply going through the motions
Afraid to climb the mountain
Emotionless eyes
Stared blankly at the dreaded dawn
From my dire sweat soaked pillow
Cries of agony
Please save me Lord from me
My own worst enemy
Painful lessons indeed
For this child of forty seven years
Slow metamorphosis
God’s gentle transformation
Layer by stubborn layer
Saved me from the cyclone
Teach me Father
My will I give to Thee
Selah!


Chronicles 4:10 (King James Version)
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10And Jabez called on the God of Israel, saying, Oh that thou wouldest bless me indeed, and enlarge my coast, and that thine hand might be with me, and that thou wouldest keep me from evil, that it may not grieve me! And God granted him that which he requested.


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2006

DEMON WINDS

DEMON WINDS

Roiling ominous clouds
Blackened doom impending
Bleak horizon looms nigh
Celestial intimidation
Precursor to apocalyptic storms approaching
Demon winds howling
Wildly swirling tempest
Darting lightening vengeance
Sky show of awesome fury
Masses scurry for shelter
A mere manmade pittance against nature’s supremacy
Safe harbor
Quiet solitude
In the climax of violent pandemonium
Lay close in His sweet embrace
As it was written by ancient prophets
My prayers go up in urgency
For all to take rapid heed
Jesus Christ awaits your call
Salvations blissful peace
Gifts unrecompensed
Refuge everlasting
Amen

Psalm 55:7-9 (King James Version)
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7Lo, then would I wander far off, and remain in the wilderness. Selah.
8I would hasten my escape from the windy storm and tempest.
9Destroy, O Lord, and divide their tongues: for I have seen violence and strife in the city.

(C) Bill Grimes Jr. 2006

A WAY OF LIFE

A WAY OF LIFE


Wisdom of a higher man
Stranded in a violent land

Blessed gift
We walk in peace
Our Father’s witness
Loves sweet release

Martyrdom
A rough way of life
Softly absorbing
Uncivilized strife

Smiling prescience
Exuberant stride
Absence of ego
Fatalities pride

Bright conscious focus
Our eyes on the prize
Salvations rich honor
The saints shall arise

Living measure
Companion to all
Apostle renewal
Angelic enthrall

Preachers of love
Disciples are we
Brothers united
In Christ’s jubilee






Luke 6:19-21 (King James Version)
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19And the whole multitude sought to touch him: for there went virtue out of him, and healed them all.
20And he lifted up his eyes on his disciples, and said, Blessed be ye poor: for yours is the kingdom of God.
21Blessed are ye that hunger now: for ye shall be filled. Blessed are ye that weep now: for ye shall laugh.

© Bill Grimes Jr. 2006