UNORTHODOX AFFAIR

I shaved my beard this morning
Symbolic rite of grief
Tale of separation
A love not meant to be
You pleaded with me not to leave
Yet I’m the one abandoned
Why
It’s not important now
This lie we have become
Hope fades in darkness
As dreams evaporate
Unorthodox affair
Romantic malnutrition
Perpetual mind games
Trumped by consequence
Heartache
Growing pains
Soul numbing sorrow
No reason to pretend
Fake it any longer
Harsh truth
Shackled spirit
Penetrating sting
Grand naivety
Destined to be fatal
So weary of the drama
Swinging pendulum
Orchestrated silence
Dreaded harbinger
Our friendship
Forged in hell
Full circle fate
No fond recollection
Much to my dismay
Blissful peaks
Far more brutal valleys
My patience
Now exhausted
At least I know the score
Crushing loneliness
Bridges burned by ego
Peace
Replaced by fear
Resentment
Disillusion
I’m grateful for the lesson
Despite such agony
Hardly worth such effort
Spiritual investment
My hungry heart
Unable
To flutter in uncertainty
Once I cared so deeply
Can’t feel it anymore
Safety net perhaps
Firewalled emotions
No honor in deception
Such a fool I’ve been
Clinging to false passion
Starry eyed façade
I’m strong this time
With purpose
Able to move on
I pray you find your answers
Wish you happiness


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

REHAB

A tear tattooed
Tortured face
Otherwise angelic
Before a painted smile
Deep foreboding secrets
Anguish lurks within
Distant loneliness
Fabricated stare
Prismatic demon dance
Storied fall from grace
Curled up with her nightmares
Longing for release
We mortals like to blame
Revel in another’s misery
So easy to imply
Temperamental friend
Thrust into celebrity
Lost credibility
Minstrel thoughts on rehab
Melodic cry for help
Trembling glass of port
Life’s shaky stage
Such fragile crescendo
Coffees getting cold


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

INTIMATE ASCENSION

Because of you sweet Mel
My soul swims with dolphins
My mind
Liberated
Music floods my senses
I float among the stars
Intricate emotions
Sacred symmetry
Intimate ascension
I peek into eternity
Savor every breath
Cherish every brilliant smile
On our journey to His light
My love for you
So natural
Incessant
Ageless adoration
Devotion
Simplicity
Deep significance
More than life itself
Know my heart is yours
Safe inside your gentle caress
I’ve always been a dreamer
It’s been you all along
My precious dream come true


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

GOOD NEWS CHILDREN

In sadness
Awe
Genuine excitement
I witness prophecy
Demons
Paranoia
Altered consciousness
Mental discomfort
Disturbing premonitions
Winds of brutal change
Howling violently
Across our insolent nation
Arrogant wasteland
Audacious disrespect
For each other
For our precious God
Secrets
Once so sacred
Dirty laundry now
Stars above
Clouded by poor judgment
So many wasted years
Crazy expectations
Insane proclivity
Dark reality
Human race gone mad
Good news children
Blessed hope remains
Faith in Him
Unseen
Almighty Holy Spirit
Consummate love
Faith
Now
More than ever
That’s good enough for me




© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

MY THOUGHTS

My thoughts fill a notebook
Said notebook plugs a hole
Legacy of grace
Flowing from my soul

Smoldering ego
Replaced by inner peace
Endless exclamation
Sensual release

They told me to give up
“Far too hard my son”
Such words of emptiness
I’ve only just begun

And I smile…………


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

SUCH IS HER COMMAND

This path
Chosen for me
So few dare to travel
A higher road indeed
To love deeply
Without expectation
No reciprocation
Absence of regret
Focused fervently
On her smile this day
Strongest adoration
Natural
As my breath
Familiar
Safe
Unassuming
This poet’s restless heart
Hers for so long
Quite impossible
For me to walk away
Such is her command
My sincerity
Best of friends
We shall always be

© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

THRASHING THOUGHTS

Thrashing thoughts
Of love divided
Opaque clarity
Weary of this silent war
Irregular heartbeat
She hides behind her trepidation
Slowly looks away
Two
Instead of one
So much damage done
Dreams of a better way
Alas
I was wrong
Heartache
Worse than death to me
Bitter enemy
How I wish I understood
I’ve loved her for so long
Lonely poet
Groans in flowing anguish
Some call it mental illness
In truth
Deep dismay
I’ve learned to accept it
A dark spot on my soul
No need
For false optimism
Empty promises
“I love you”
Falls on deaf ears
When “I’m in love with you”
Drives my very being


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

HUNGER

Falling hard
A way of life
Stubborn dreamer ways
Blue insomniac
Tired of being full
I long for passions hunger
Loneliness
Conjures thoughts of death
To care
Once came quite naturally
Lately
I just don’t give a shit
Hopeless thoughts of bliss
Escape me once again
Dismal heartache drive by
Her empty double talk
I’ve danced among the dead
So many moons of darkness
I feel his vile presence
Haunting me once more
Shadows cast a gloomy pall
Another painful night


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009