UNORTHODOX AFFAIR

I shaved my beard this morning
Symbolic rite of grief
Tale of separation
A love not meant to be
You pleaded with me not to leave
Yet I’m the one abandoned
Why
It’s not important now
This lie we have become
Hope fades in darkness
As dreams evaporate
Unorthodox affair
Romantic malnutrition
Perpetual mind games
Trumped by consequence
Heartache
Growing pains
Soul numbing sorrow
No reason to pretend
Fake it any longer
Harsh truth
Shackled spirit
Penetrating sting
Grand naivety
Destined to be fatal
So weary of the drama
Swinging pendulum
Orchestrated silence
Dreaded harbinger
Our friendship
Forged in hell
Full circle fate
No fond recollection
Much to my dismay
Blissful peaks
Far more brutal valleys
My patience
Now exhausted
At least I know the score
Crushing loneliness
Bridges burned by ego
Peace
Replaced by fear
Resentment
Disillusion
I’m grateful for the lesson
Despite such agony
Hardly worth such effort
Spiritual investment
My hungry heart
Unable
To flutter in uncertainty
Once I cared so deeply
Can’t feel it anymore
Safety net perhaps
Firewalled emotions
No honor in deception
Such a fool I’ve been
Clinging to false passion
Starry eyed façade
I’m strong this time
With purpose
Able to move on
I pray you find your answers
Wish you happiness


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

REHAB

A tear tattooed
Tortured face
Otherwise angelic
Before a painted smile
Deep foreboding secrets
Anguish lurks within
Distant loneliness
Fabricated stare
Prismatic demon dance
Storied fall from grace
Curled up with her nightmares
Longing for release
We mortals like to blame
Revel in another’s misery
So easy to imply
Temperamental friend
Thrust into celebrity
Lost credibility
Minstrel thoughts on rehab
Melodic cry for help
Trembling glass of port
Life’s shaky stage
Such fragile crescendo
Coffees getting cold


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

INTIMATE ASCENSION

Because of you sweet Mel
My soul swims with dolphins
My mind
Liberated
Music floods my senses
I float among the stars
Intricate emotions
Sacred symmetry
Intimate ascension
I peek into eternity
Savor every breath
Cherish every brilliant smile
On our journey to His light
My love for you
So natural
Incessant
Ageless adoration
Devotion
Simplicity
Deep significance
More than life itself
Know my heart is yours
Safe inside your gentle caress
I’ve always been a dreamer
It’s been you all along
My precious dream come true


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

GOOD NEWS CHILDREN

In sadness
Awe
Genuine excitement
I witness prophecy
Demons
Paranoia
Altered consciousness
Mental discomfort
Disturbing premonitions
Winds of brutal change
Howling violently
Across our insolent nation
Arrogant wasteland
Audacious disrespect
For each other
For our precious God
Secrets
Once so sacred
Dirty laundry now
Stars above
Clouded by poor judgment
So many wasted years
Crazy expectations
Insane proclivity
Dark reality
Human race gone mad
Good news children
Blessed hope remains
Faith in Him
Unseen
Almighty Holy Spirit
Consummate love
Faith
Now
More than ever
That’s good enough for me




© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

MY THOUGHTS

My thoughts fill a notebook
Said notebook plugs a hole
Legacy of grace
Flowing from my soul

Smoldering ego
Replaced by inner peace
Endless exclamation
Sensual release

They told me to give up
“Far too hard my son”
Such words of emptiness
I’ve only just begun

And I smile…………


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

SUCH IS HER COMMAND

This path
Chosen for me
So few dare to travel
A higher road indeed
To love deeply
Without expectation
No reciprocation
Absence of regret
Focused fervently
On her smile this day
Strongest adoration
Natural
As my breath
Familiar
Safe
Unassuming
This poet’s restless heart
Hers for so long
Quite impossible
For me to walk away
Such is her command
My sincerity
Best of friends
We shall always be

© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

THRASHING THOUGHTS

Thrashing thoughts
Of love divided
Opaque clarity
Weary of this silent war
Irregular heartbeat
She hides behind her trepidation
Slowly looks away
Two
Instead of one
So much damage done
Dreams of a better way
Alas
I was wrong
Heartache
Worse than death to me
Bitter enemy
How I wish I understood
I’ve loved her for so long
Lonely poet
Groans in flowing anguish
Some call it mental illness
In truth
Deep dismay
I’ve learned to accept it
A dark spot on my soul
No need
For false optimism
Empty promises
“I love you”
Falls on deaf ears
When “I’m in love with you”
Drives my very being


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

HUNGER

Falling hard
A way of life
Stubborn dreamer ways
Blue insomniac
Tired of being full
I long for passions hunger
Loneliness
Conjures thoughts of death
To care
Once came quite naturally
Lately
I just don’t give a shit
Hopeless thoughts of bliss
Escape me once again
Dismal heartache drive by
Her empty double talk
I’ve danced among the dead
So many moons of darkness
I feel his vile presence
Haunting me once more
Shadows cast a gloomy pall
Another painful night


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

LYRICS IN THE SAND

Flowing lyrics
Written in the sand
Slowly washed away
By Mother Nature’s filter
Such ironic fate
For words from shallow depth
Only those with substance
Stark sincerity
Shall stand the test of time
Ripened
Thus immortal
Borne of deepest passion
Forever nestled
In art’s harmonic womb


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

3 AM BLUES (For Melany)

Bedside sleight of hand
Barking pain
Boredom creeping in
Hospital life
Not for this roaming wordsmith
Artistic prose from Jewel
Mel’s soothing touch
New secrets
She only shares with me
Awkwardness fades
Her love makes me smile
Brilliant
Shy
Her lip quivers slightly
As I gently kiss her hand
So natural
A deep relaxing breath
We thrive in harmony
When undisturbed by worldly hindrance
Tender balance
Delicate waltz
Blissful cocoon
A study in pain
Leads to complete surrender
Pent up emotions
Seven years nigh
Now bursting at the seams
Sweet synthesis
Requires only faith
My road
Long and weary
Perfect days pass
Difficult slumber
Harder every night to sleep without her
Our storied past
Defies explanation
I would do it all again
Anything for her happiness
To hold her close to me
No doubts
No regrets
My deepest love for her
Consumes me
Predestined path
Includes her hand in mine
As it was meant to be
Truest gift from God
Adoration
Consummate symmetry
Blessed daily alms
I feel her pull away at times
As she sorts through her thoughts
Understand her soul completely
Intimate union
I know she believes
No harm can come from His will
Holy gift of each other
To live as one some day
Delicious thoughts of forever
She
This flowing song in my heart
Always


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

Crème brûlée

She transports me to magical places
Red roses
Crème brûlée
Bonefish ambiance
Heathers artful gift
Leaking eyes
As we absorbed “The Notebook”
Seven years significance
So worth the wait
My how the candlelight
Dances through her loving eyes
Velvet touch
Soothing admiration
As only she can offer
Trust grows
Where fear once reigned
Emotional surrender
I need her now
I wanted her back then
Such is her impact upon my heart
Her sensitive ways
More I crave sweet Mel
His gentle proof
Deftly woven
Through His holy orchestration
No rejection baby
Only love
In it’s deepest form
As it was meant to be


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

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SATAN’S WORLD (A song about reality)

Promised wealth in lethal doses
Violated trust
Perpetual lies
False prosperity
Placing human faith
In the wrong entity
Bombarded by the apathy
Hard to swallow at times
So many desperate souls
Searching for a better way
Silent
Shy
Far too many die
I witness fear
Deep within sad eyes
Sincere anguish
Satan’s world is brutal man
Please believe me when I say
I’ve danced with him a time or two
Fresh new sound
Founded on frustration
Poignant truth
In your face urgency
No need to condescend
Recommend
Try to comprehend
The hope of Jesus Christ
His vision drives my soul
Ever forward
No longer looking back
My frail human shell
I’m not forever young
Not a flipping chance
Aging rapidly
Hardly gracefully
Unceremoniously
Nuclear weapons can’t save me
Neither can one man
Holy assurance
His day approaches
Fulfilling destiny
All the words will have been said
Listen now
With ears that can still hear
Compassion erupts within me
Like flowing lava
My gig is to spread His love
If you don’t dig it
That’s OK
I have to shout it anyway


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

50 YEARS ALONG

Grandiose ideas
Intuitive actions
A thousand good intentions
No need for human blueprint
Chartered course to misery
I’ve memorized your words
Pointed incantations
Shallow creeds of fear
My eyes
Closed in peaceful ease
Need no mortal sight
Higher road to travel
Children thrive in wonder
Innocence
Authentic fascination
50 years along
That’s good enough for me


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

AMBIVALENT

Broken dreams
Empty ambition
Crestfallen mindset
Solemn privacy
Death surrounds me
Amusing at times
No fear for the record
Merely spitting truth
Selfishness
Shallow people
Take my breath at times
Surrounded by grace
Blessed beyond my worth
Life
Blasting holes in my lucidity
Connection with a sacred few
Reaching out to millions
Alone in so many ways
Solitary journey
Perhaps my destiny
My brain
Filled with words to share
My heart
Weary
Hesitant
Ambivalent


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

SEDUCTIVE NONCHALANCE

Strange place
Behind her haunting eyes
Foreign land
Forbidden to any man
Addictive DNA
Intoxicating touch
Seductive nonchalance
Solitary room
Restrictive walls within
No need for explanation
Too heavy for my drifting mind
Brains on the sidewalk
Or simply beyond reach
It matters not today
I just don’t care no more
Moving on is a bitch
Growth
Hurts like death at times
But so necessary
For facile sanity
Loneliness is King
In her land of good intentions


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

DOOMED LOVE

They met in a tropical storm
Lovers once
Best of friends perhaps
His sour mash temper
No match for tragic tears
Acid avalanche
Stark reality
Reared its ugly head
She told him to go to hell
I’ve been there already said he
Her coal black eyes
Piercing
Filled with seething rage
Subtle hint of fear
Melancholy gaze
No answers found that day
Only more confusion
Rueful disconnect
Mindless admiration
Severely dashed hopes
Sacred dreams
Lay bleeding in the city street
She simply walked away
As if she were invincible
A soul must be set free
Or it shall cease to be


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

MIRROR

I wash my face in nostalgia
Take my place in line
With a diametric few
Stars in the heavens
Some in narcissistic minds
Falling rapidly
This day our Lord has prepared
Accustomed rhetoric
Programmed behavior
Acceptance
Patience
Winding road to resolution
Ways of providence
Never crystal clear
Endearing
Enduring
Wayward thoughts
Never meant to comprehend
Second chance at reason
Comes with a lofty price
No longer seeking answers
Simple peace shall do
For some
I am a mirror
Reflections of reality
Unfolding pages
Plastic minds
Hearts of fragile glass
My whiteness
Grows ever beige
Chameleon hues at times
Art
Must be defended
Savored
Dissected carefully
Word by soulful word
Framed by measured care
A poets bleeding prose
Eyes closed
Open mind
Gemstone lines magnified
You can’t stop the flow
Merely absorb it
Seeds of life
Suppressed
Endings are beginnings
My belly full
Still I hunger
Seeking deepest truth


© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

FRIVOLITY

Needle skipping wildly
Dust engulfs the stylus
Time to condescend
Shallow laughter
Morphed intelligence
Reason
Seems to fade
Methodology
Crashing in on protocol
To write about it
Makes coherent sense
But then again
Who dictates logic?
My best work
As good as those who comprehend
True enlightenment
Forbidden zone to some
A step closer to heaven
For us who disagree
Clever performance
Fades with rapid listlessness
All eyes on Orion
Or was it idol fever
I marvel at frivolity
Glib response
To social recompense
Medicine
Modern human intervention
Feeble application
Yet we fail to control the wind
Lone candle
Lights my storied path
Esoteric
So it is
In 2009
God’s mercy
Leaves me weak at times
Melts my macho arrogance
I feel dark advances
Rape
Pillage
Plunder
Soon you shall be gone
No memory of your visit
The show rambles on
Despite my limp unease



© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

I DREAM

I dream
I laugh
I argue
I posture
I pretend
So rarely do I break through
Pierce the subliminal veil
That segregates casual and formal
Penetrating bond
Sacred heart connection
Where words aren’t necessary
Sex has no beginning
No melancholy end
Laser eye contact
Probing profound thoughts
Intimate bond unique
To deeply inhale
Her feminine essence
Laying bare my own
Where fashion is nonexistent
Deceit
Impossible to muster
Reflex melts
Authentic comfort invades
Human vibe is ever focused
The apex of attention
I’ve tasted it in snippets
Various levels of consciousness
Surreal wavelengths
Mystical way the music moves me
Lightning bolts
Dancing down my spine
Man I crave it still
No substitutions for completion
Confidential bliss
It’s all about soul
Such is life as I see it
My search goes on
I wonder if she seeks me too



© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009

SEEKING SIGNIFICANCE

Never been afraid of dying
Just the thought of my children crying
Trudging along each day
Seeking significance
Plots
Knotted nicely
It’s the drama I despise
Militant mindsets
Lyrical laughter
Low maintenance mirth
Vintage verity
Complications
Purely consequential
Life of pain
What’s left of it
After thirty loaded years
Arthritic hip ablaze
Rumors of tumors
Cheating death some believe
Not hardly says I
Merely stalling paradise
Old man dozing
Years flying by him
Lot’s of water under his bridge
I smile with realization
He is me
Simply no worries
As it should be



© Bill Grimes Jr. 2009